You know when you love something so much it hurts. When it’s all you think about. It’s the reason you wake up in the morning? That’s what Voted Most Random used to be to me. Over time that passion, that fire, faded away. It was slow, but it was steady. My father once told me that if he could bottle up the smile I have on my face when I play drums on that stage it would be worth a million dollars. I used to catch myself smiling when I played drums. I used to feel like being on that stage was exactly where the universe needed me. More recently I felt that smile fade, and I felt the universe was making a new plan for me. I’m not entirely sure what that plan is yet, but I know it’s out there somewhere. People keep asking me what if they get big, what people don’t know is, it is not a matter of if, its a matter of when. Those four guys are the most driven individuals I have ever met, I envy that about them, so I know they’re going to go on to bigger and better things. I leave on great terms, it was a decision I made and the guys support me in. There are no negative feelings about it and I want everyone to know that.
I’ve come to the realization that I may not be behind the drum set any more but Voted Most Random was and will always be a part of my life. It started out as some college kid wanting to play some songs in his basement with some guys and turned into something so much more. It has been amazing. I mean fuck, I played a sold out headlining show. That is a dream come true my friends. Words cannot describe how happy you’ve all made me, how happy this band made me, but when the flame flickers out, it takes a lot to realize it, and a lot more to act upon it. I’ve been contemplating it a lot, but as much as it hurts, it was exactly what I needed to do for myself. Music will still be music. And my memories will still be my memories. I will never forget a single moment that I was living the dream. I want everyone to also know that I will forever be willing to help anyone with anything. One thing that I loved about VMR was that it was five like-minded individuals on a mission to help people and make them smile. I may not be IN Voted Most Random, but Voted Most Random is still in me. Keep in touch, chase your dreams, follow your heart, and when someone doubts you, prove them wrong.
Had a friend send this to me. I felt it may help some of you guys too. Great advice. Advice I follow everyday.
Work toward your goals every day without fail. The harder you work, the luckier you will become. Stop waiting around for things to work out on their own. They won’t. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.
While many of us decide at some point during the course of our lives that we want to answer our calling, only an astute few of us actually work on it. By ‘working on it,’ I mean truly devoting oneself to the end result. The rest of us never act on our decision. Or, at best, we pretend to act on it by putting forth an uninspired, half-assed effort.
If you want good luck in your life, you’ve got to be willing to give it 100% every day. No slacking off! Achieving your goals and dreams can be a lot of work. Be ready for it.
Everything changes when all the lights in the room are as low as you, But don’t trip you’ll sober up soon Regain an honest perspective as you puke on the floor Can’t remember why your knees are so cut up and sore
Because without them, I’d honestly be lonely and depressed all the time. Without them I wouldn’t know or be close with any of my best friends; I would have nothing to look forward to; I woudn’t know what chasing your dreams meant. They’re truly inspirational. And they might not know it, but sometimes, they’re the only reasons I can smile. You know what else? They’re going to make me so proud of how far they get some day. You’ll see.
I miss the feeling you get when you first meet someone, and you find out they think your cute, and of course you think they are absolutely adorable. And then you talk all time time, and you try to be funny, but not too funny. And playful, but not too playful. And sweet, but not too sweet. And you make plans to hangout, and you look forward to it all week long. Then it finally arrives, and you get those butterflies in your stomach, and you walk up to the door to ring the bell and all you’re thinking is, “Don’t trip. Don’t stutter. Don’t mess this up.” And then you see them, and the butterflies go crazy and all you can do is smile…